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I've been a Bandom lurker for almost 2 years (I'm sure I've broken some sort of record) and I've decided to change that now. For a long time I've watched people write brilliant stories and make amazing art/podfic etc. and I've been scared. Scared to join in and face the prospect of being less talented than everyone else or not fitting in. I know that it's pretty stupid, but it’s how I've felt for a long time, and I still feel like that; but I've decided not to be an idiot anymore and just try.

I've been suffering from perpetual writer’s block for a long time, even longer than I've been aware of Bandom or fandom in general. Every time I attempt to create something; I look at it, see it as something stupid and never finish it. I’m trying to fight this, but it may take me a while.

About 6 months ago, I tried to escape this rut by doing art for bandombigbang 2012, using a previous account. I did finish the art (it was for Make It Loud by brooklinegirl ) and it got a surprisingly lovely response, but it somehow didn't stop the block I've been in.

So now, after all of this time watching Bandom from afar, I've decided to get off my backside and do something. I've made new LJ and DW accounts with the new username that I've been using on my Tumblr and Twitter for a while. Here, I will (hopefully) post fic and possibly art and generally get more involved with fandom things.
It probably won’t be very good for a while as I've not done a lot of writing/drawing for a LONG while, but please bare with me whilst I get on my feet.

There are a lot of people in Bandom who I like and admire, but I've never really talked to anyone, so if you want to say hi; please feel free. It would make my day.

Anyway; I think that’s all I have to say. So… yeah.